I dun wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I dun wanna talk about it

And i dun want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I dun wanna talk about it

Cause im in love with you.




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Thursday, April 21, 2005

whees..next half.
heh.

weel msg me.
said she went for netball trg.
i miss netball!
and she made me think of TK NETBALL.
i miss playing together!
i miss all those trgs when we died together..
then if it's someone's bdae, spray water!!
aaaarghhhhh......

i miss you all.
i miss the eight..
my Vlll...

bleargh.

and why do i miss you so much..?
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"i believe..that love is the answer...
and i believe..love will find a way..."

10:04:00 PM
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died la..im like lost in a complicated world called love.
but i dun think it's even love.
infactuation..
[is tt how u spell?]
haha...anyhoo.
yesterday got some hoha.
but i think everything was fine after tt.

went to WATCH takraw.
cos no mood la.
then met fana and walk ard TM.
then she went home, i went meet syida and co.
made a new fren called HADI.
he's crappy and weird.
haha.
yesh.
*spins ard*
wanted to vomit after playing at the playgrd.
nyeh.

today.nth much happened.
just tt.
i found out.
guys actually gossip..
hmpf.
*looks at JAS*
nvm..nvm...

after sch went LJS with sulaiman and anwar.
my hp died on me!
bah..
haha..bo pleyy person go and take wrong train to EUNOS.
lol.
anwar took the train towards boon lay when he was supopse to go EUNOS.
i thot i heard wrongly so i didnt say anything.
haha..and worse still!
we were reading the "map"..
lol..ultimate bo pleyy to the maximum sia..
khekhee..

9:55:00 PM
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

i just love cutting my entries into 2.
heh.

TPJC ppl came!!
shearer...am and ed!!
then syida came!
hahaa..
whees.

love em.
miss em.
love em.
miss em.
love em.
miss em.
heart em so much.

*kiss*kiss* dee..
*kiss*kiss* syida..
hikam *bleargh*
lol.

nuramalina!! it's like i love your hair la.
u jambu person u..

nyehee.
eh jas.
stop reading my blog la.
hhahaah.
madness..
wanna read must tag noe.
((:

whees.met weel!! yay!
haha.
she was saying she long time nvr crap.
me too lorh.
then just now she came over my house.
were walking at carpark like drunkerds..
lol..

tmr got pe.
then mebbe gg takraw.
must study management!
friday got trg..yay..
hehee..
i miss netball!
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"i want you when ure beautiful..."

10:40:00 PM
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some ppl just cannot keep it to himself.
tell other ppl.
hmpf.
announce it on the PA system easier mah.
so whole world can noe..
bahh.
but anyhoo.
im not mad.
just irritated.
cos ppl keep disturbing me.
[and yesh hikam..tt includes you.]

sighs.
today like so dramatic.
got some "issues" settled.
ili wasnt there la!
bleargh.
things may get weird and i dun promise im gonna start talking like normal.
but well..we'll see as time progresses..
lemme get this straight la..
EYECANDIES and SIGHT CRUSHES are totally diff from ACTUALLY LIKING someone.
so i may have like a gazillion eyecandies and sight crushes.
but liking someone is a totally different thing.
i dun go around LIKING so many ppl.
fine..i do talk abt em and get excited when i see em.
but it's not called LIKE.
bah.
understand it okay?
and well..in the first place, i already forgotten abt the whole situation.
so today..it JUST had to be brought up.
but anyhoo..it's over.
settled.
i dun bear grudges.
so yeah...

had floorball trg.
ha..fun?
yesh..fun..
((:
dee got one more in her list.
haha.. ((:

10:27:00 PM
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Sunday, April 17, 2005

heh.
hi.
(:
didnt go for game yest.
bah.
now i feel like playing.
altho it's been one day.
shucks.
havent do gp essay.

today.
went watch standard chartered sevens.
rugby!!
heh.
fun sia..
the crowd was great.
all blacks..think they win la.
left before they played finals.
nyeh.
just ate dinner.
so full.
havent bathe.
lol.

sleepy.
yest slept ard 2?
was on msn.
ha.
hikam hikam.
always making me smile.
lol.
was rolling on the floor yest.
nyahahaha.
all the sentences he typed out seemed so wrong.
lol...

so today didnt go out with weel.
:x miss her lah!
miss gg shop shop..
i miss the team!
yet again......
*sobs*
when can we get together?
and play as one team again?
wanna cry lor.

oh no..
tmr monday.
hafta tell syasya...
it's time..
*dies*
hahaa...
bleargh.

im having tt feeling again.
i miss someone.
annoying la..
aarrrghhh.
cos saw photos.
:/
can we turn back time?
let me see u once again..
just sit and stare at you..
like wad i always do....
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"how did i fall in love with you..."

9:29:00 PM
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

saturday.
saturdays seem so blahh...
heh.
besides gg for nike.
[all the guys in school dun believe there's a thing called nike netball club..bah..]
yesh..

[the guys: eh..why u bring shoebag?
me: urm..got netball friendly later..
the guys: u play for wad?
me: urm..a club?
the guys: club? wad club?
me: urm..nike..
the guys: haha! got such thing one meh? nike..yah right...]

(-_-")
no comments la.
hahaa.

anyhoo..yesterday was with acjc.
full of ijtp players.
they were gd leh.
ha..
and i played one quater only.
wasnt focus.
i was in a daze and nose running..
bleargh.
then fana's sis drove us to tamp.

then today suppose to go jamming with anwar and all.
then i didnt go.
thinking if i shud even go for the vj game later.
shud i stay? or shud i go?
heh...
*sniffs*

oh yah..yesterday the mly seminar.
interesting.
the motivation talk was in english.
lol.
the only mly part was the syair.
interesting.

OH! i finally talked to hafidz.
lol..hikam..hikam..hikam..
sometimes i wanna squeeze u.
hahaa..

realise got alot of MI ppl who noe me but i dun really noe em.
they just cum and talk to me like we've been frens for dunno how long.
haha.
like yest..
the ang-moh-but-not-ang-moh guy..
azhar zit?or better known as marcus according to akbar.
yeah..
he took a video of me..
then we started talking abt braces.
hahaa..
mebbe they're just friendly?

yes! i realise..
bartley ppl have this "fetish" for braces.
haha..i mean.
seems like bartley ppl love putting on braces..
haha.
fashion statement.
everywhere..got ppl with diff coloured.
then being the thick skin me.
i'll just go up and say..
"eh! yellow braces!"
or
"eh! nice colour! *points to teeth*"
heheee..

k..think i talk too much cock already.
haha..update later or sth.
cya all..
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"im walking away from you..."

1:44:00 PM
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Thursday, April 14, 2005

sighs.
yet another cold reply.

hilmi and jas were so cute today.
they kept asking me wad jers no is hafiz.
they said they gonna kick his ass..
injure him and all.
lol.

[hilmi: eh jas..when we shaking hands tt part, we ask each of them 'are u hafiz?' ah..then we kick his ass all..
jas: eh..alright ah...]

haha..apparently the current MI ppl noes tt hafiz is a darn gd player.
well-known aye?
heh..

today suppose to run 100m.
trials la..
but in the end didnt do it.
thus me and cheryl are in the confirmed team.
yeps.
i think she's bloody fast.
heh.. (:

today ended late.
515.
damn sian.
ha..today SO PEACEFUL.
cos the FARK didnt come..
*cheers!*

been hanging out with so many guys these days.
especially my classmates.
they're like sporty and nonsensical.
yah..
yest was the only girl ard.
today me and saf.
miss dee and annas and ili and ali.
ali's now with his grp of new ppl..
the "art" ppl.
then annas and dee always together..
ili is everywhere but still..
all of em same class except me.
bah..

thus today i went home alone.
sulaiman found it amusing and started laughing.
annoying.
left my photos in his hp.
lol.. ((:
self absorbed kid here..

tmr..after sch got mly seminar at ttc.
then got frenly with acjc at 815pm.
ahuh..

ehh..long time nvr see zeya liao.
hahaa...
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"cause i was blinded by the light
that was shining from ur head to ur toe..."

8:25:00 PM
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Wednesday, April 13, 2005

and yesh.
weel had bball frenly today.
heh.
with cjc.
sho cute.
she was so nervous.
ahem...the compo!
can write abt tt!
hahaa..

and lx had x-country at turf city.
sho cool la.
wish she had ran.
did she?
((:

tmr..MI vs CJC (soccer)
hafiz is playing.
*smiles*
at VJ field.
i want watch!
but i end at 515..
sighs..

[to daddy: help me look! hahaa..]

10:27:00 PM
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syasya didnt go sch today!
and thus i didnt get bullied.
hahaa..whees.
(:
but..hmm..fine la..
mebbe i did..
but not so bad.
yesterday worse.

rury naritasamy pillay.

ttz my name in class.
thanks to certain ppl.
haa..
and im the sri lankan maid.
according to IAN.
bah.

but despite the annoyingness.
i like my class.
fun ppl.. (:
anwar's my husband now.
he takes gd care of me.
tho he dun want any kids.
haha.
i want 7 girls btw.
can play netball.
lol.
oh wells.
he's a sweetie.

[anwar: *pats my head* dun be shy ok? just smile..]

today went SP.
for some seminar.
saw adib.
yeahh..
then went town with fizah.
in need of shoes and top.
heh.
no..it's i want.
hee.

dee and ili are gg nuts each passing day.
lol.
eyecandies.
tsktsk.
i think im over tt.
I THINK.
ha.
i want a chinese bf!
lol.
a sporty one.
hhaa..crap.
no la..

i'll find THE ONE.
(:
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cant believe i was stupid enough
to have fallen for the FARKer...


hahaa....

10:13:00 PM
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Sunday, April 10, 2005

today..today..today..

morn went to school la..
sunday class.
yes.
suppose to end like 1245.
but had to go for meeting till 3pm.
bah!
annoyin la..
haha..

then got home..ate and ate and ate.
chox and more chox.
bleargh.
later gg bedok to eat somemore.
lol..im fat!
tmr got pe..
2.4!!
aarrrggghhh..
dun wanna run.
hmpf.

5:16:00 PM
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boo.. (:
hehee..yesterday was nothing much.
lol.
okies...well..in the morn met inez at small mac at 830.
waited for the rest to come..
amy, hidayah, syazana, jas and annas.
then went tamp stadium.
syasya was there..(hahaa..)
he had trg la.
k..then we changed and all and guess wad?
only did 3 sets of 100m sprint..
and everyone started sitting ard and chat away..
haa..
so yah lorh.
basically woke up for tt.
went to eat at LJS..
then met up with adil for a while to get chox!
heh..he just got back from UK.
chox and cookies..yummy!! ((:

then met fizah..
been soOoo long la..
had alot to update liddat.
went ard to look for stuffs..
then afterwards..
i made her angry.. ):
i keep making ppl angry la...
im so sorry..
really am..so sorry..
i still love u k?
hope u still love me too..
*sobs*
meet up again soon k??
i'll make sure im free...
sorry once again.

kays..then she accompanied me go meet fark.
he wanted to watch movie.
so yah lor..be cool.
not tt nice la..
but ok lorh..some parts funny..
heh.
then went for nike trg at knc..

trg was hmm..not tt tiring.
i was rather tired before tt..
but durg trg..i was quiet?
haha..cudnt talk properly lah..
the bloody braces..
lol..
hmmm..need to get used to playing C.
desiree told me must learn how to play WA too.
bleargh..
i miss playing WD.
heh..
work on the drives..
and learn how to feed properly..

then afterwards..went home la.
tool busie..
been pretty long since i took 31 home.
whees..

5:06:00 PM
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Friday, April 08, 2005

the happy stuffs.
fark broke my sex band. yest.
the black one.
and he kept bugging me the WHOLE DAY.
is tt considered the happy stuffs?
hmm..nvm..but yah lah..
basically got bullied.
hahaa..syaqir calls me naritasamy.
which is SO not funny.
i call him syasya.
cuteness..bleargh.

[mr lam: who's this md. fark...
the class: LAUGHS OUT LOUD.]

ahakz..damn funny..
and he didnt continue the han part..lol.
woohoo.
yesterday all the lessons were like introduction.
and getting to noe the names of ppl..
nyehee.
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today!

haa..school was fine.
ili was mad at everyone..
especially FARK.
ya..he's getting really annoying..
esp when ure stuck sitting beside him.
broke another of my sex band.
stOOpid.

anyways...
today.
hafidz..haha..ttz the guy's name..
[hikam if ure reading this.. wipe tt evil grin off ur face!]
yeahh..he was upfront.
k..im being reminded of him now cos........

i got my braces on!!
haha..and i got pink ones..
pink pink pink pink.
i dunno y i chose pink.
cos tt time weel said choose pink..
so i did..lol.. ((:
feels weird..and i look retarded!
i dun wish to smile anymore..
ha...

i wanted to update on alot..but i dunno wad.
haa..
nvm..shall think of sth.
later got nike trg...whees.
just hope the ball dun hit my face or my mouth.
haa...
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"you held my hand and walked me home I know..."

4:46:00 PM
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i swear i dun understand guys..
i really dont..
complicating..i thought it might be me..
but talked to syida yesterday..and she's in the same boat.
like seriously.
sighs..
now..im just gonna forget guys.
ha..how many times have i said tt?
i wonder....
okies..ttz like yesterday's news..

4:43:00 PM
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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

no matter wad i do..
i still miss you.....
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[i will go the distance
i will go the miles
that's how much you mean to me
cause i cant take the distance
i cant take these miles
i cant take the time until i next see you smile
i cant take the distance
and im not ashamed
that with every breath i take im calling your name
i cant take the distance...]


[i dun wanna fall to pieces
i just wanna sit and stare at you...]

7:35:00 PM
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wads there to say or do when the person you love dun seem to care.
some say "move on.."
but others are making you stay in this shit.
hurts bad.
i want to move on..i dun wanna dwell..
but i miss those days.
i just miss everything...

kinda fought with annas.
okie..i made him angry.
im really really sorry..but i swear..HE wasnt the reason why i couldnt make it to shearer's house..i swear..
im not sure if u'll ever wanna make me promise again..
or just listen to what ive got to say.
but im really really sorry...
i noe ure disappointed.
but lemme say this..
i wasnt at all happy thruout my time with them.
i was thinking of wad u said..
i felt guilty..i felt horrible.
i was thinking of wad i shud do..
i was in a state of confusion.
i wasnt at all sure of what i was doing..or wad im doing.
and i think i made a dumb decision.
cos in the end..i 'lost' everything:
i went home alone.
ure mad at me.

u might think im gonna forget someone.
someone who was so much better..
but trust me..
no matter wad i do..
i'll still miss my eeyore....

just hope things wud be fine tmr.
chocs for u? :x

7:15:00 PM
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